Clearing Things Up

Well.. that's a relief!

After a short phone call with Paladin this morning, while he is off running a morning chore before My visit, it is cleared up that he has no desire to spank Me. Twas the way that he wrote things that made Me think so, but what he was simply referring to was to returning the favor of providing Me with hours of pleasure. That I like and can handle. The other still had Me in a bit of a tizzy and yet, I was attempting to be open minded. As I told him, the only way that I could handle him doing that, is if My own Master directly Commanded him to do it to Me, and Commanded Me to submit to it. So.. while there will be as pet says 'plenty of pleasure'... there will be no dammed spanking, be it pleasurable or otherwise!

(smile) Paladin says essentially that I have evolved into this Domming place, and he would not want to do anything to take Me backwards into a submissive place. And My feeling is the same.. with the caveat of not with him. For there IS a place for Me with My own Master in regards to this. He is still quite sick however, but he is getting slowly better. I see him a couple times a week as I take him to his doctors appointments still. The wound his shoulder(from a horrid staph infection that he got from a steroid shot in his shoulder for a pinched nerve) is still huge and deep and Master tried to take himself off the pain pills, but could not sleep for a week and finally resigned himself the he would have to go back on them much to his regret.

My Master is very proud of what I do with Paladin, and very supportive of it. It has been amusing to discuss the different things that I do with Paladin and get input from Master about some of the ideas that he has for doing things as well. Things have come a very far way from the submissive that I was to the Mystress that I am now. And.. it has come to pass that I have to be around a truly strongly Dominate person for My submissive side to surface at all now. In the past, it was the mode I was in most of the time. Paladin is also very proud of who and what I have become in this journey, and hence I was quite surprised to think that he wanted to spank Me. But.. I suppose it is a testament to My open mindedness and trust in him that I was even willing to consider the idea.

In reflection, the only reason that I was, is because Paladin does have a very strong controlling personality and I expected I could see him channeling that energy in regards to this. But.. as I told him on the phone, My base instinct was still "NO %$#*&@# WAY! And that made him chuckle andI think happy.

I do have Myne own plans as far as things I want to do with Paladin.. and I worked some of the day yesterday on what My Knight called a 'diabolical' 'arts and crafts' project to use on pet today. (very wicked grin!) He'll certainly be spending time tied down and blindfolded as well, and it will be before Me. Wonder how I will like them when he uses them on Me?

So, on that happy note, I sign off for now. Getting ready for Paladin's text that he is on his way home.. and 'let the games begin!"

We'll both be off line until until Sun or Mon.

Best to all out there,
Mystress