Paladin's Sacrifice and Mystress's Gratitude

Paladin rescued Me from a bit of a meltdown and I am very very grateful to him for it. I was having a very rough time getting things sorted out over Friday and the weekend, and not the sort of co-operation that I needed to get what I needed done done. Spinning whells in the sand and possible huge family living arrangements changes happening this week had Me in My own private uproar... except for Paladin.. who knew that I was feeling very frazzled and on edge.

It was one of those wanting to run and hide somewhere days I get sometimes. And.. a lack of control in addition to all of the above. But now.. after a wonderfully unexpected day and evening away with Paladin..and must admit, I feel 1000000000% better. I have certainly come to miss him after just a few days apart. He has a... steadiness to him that is very good for Me. And there are frustrations that I can talk with him about that he can help Me with as he knows the situation first hand. His advice is always level headed and good for Me. In this case.. frustration at not being able to get the things done I wanted to had led Me into a tailspin.

This was supposed to have been Paladin's weekend to hole up totally alone and simply veg himself. But instead, after I sent him an email and while we were having our Sun morning chat... he told Me that I was welcome to come spend yesterday with him. I was anxious, and hesitant as this was supposed to be time for him alone. But he truly seemed to be alright with it. I can't begin to say how much the idea of escaping to his 'sauna' appealed to Me. (smiles)

After I arrived, I put My phone on the charger in the bedroom with the sound off and turned everything off but relaxing for the day. It was like a one day mini-vacation. Sometimes I can reset Paladin's buttons.. and yesterday, he reset Mine. Of the many ways that he gives Me pleasure and is of service to Me.. this was one of the most healing and rewarding days ever. I truly NEEDED him.. and bless his dear sacrificial heart... he came through for Me. I know that there are times he can, and times he can't. And I always understand when he can't. I know it's never because he does not want to, but simply how life if sometimes.

There was a movie he had on DVD we had been wanting to see for a couple of months now. So, yesterday was the day that we curled up together and watched the extended version of. With a delightful pre-movie bit of pleasure.. some intermission pleasure and some after the movie pleasure. We had home made phad thai and watched Big Brother together. He gave Me a wonderful wonderful back massage.. and I returned the favor with him leaning back against Me in the tub.

I can't begin to say how much the time with Paladin helped Me yesterday. Being away from the frustrations was an enormous help, and this morning I felt much more balanced and ready to deal with some challenging issues. I have already gotten many things sorted out today that I simply wasn't able to cope with yesterday. I own him a great debt of gratitude for duty above and beyond the call of duty. A part of Me felt badly that I was taking this day of isolation away from him and I shall have to find a way to make it up to him. Now.. some folks would say that he's the submissive and I the Domme.. and I don't have to do that. Well.. that might be all well and good and true, but.. it is NOT how I feel about this situation. I am.. profoundly grateful to him.. and I want him to know it. And how appreciative I am of him. He does so very much for Me, that each day I know I am deeply blessed to have him in My life.

This was a really a low key time for us both, except for him being in excellent pleasure giving mode.. and he was able to truly relax Me in many ways... and I hope he knows.. just how grateful I truly truly am to him! Thank you, thank you, thank you pet!!!

With much love and affection for Her amazing Paladin,
Mystress