Paladin as Counselor and Confidant

Hello R/readers,

I don't talk much about my regular work here. Suffice it to say I work with a challenging population. There is a reason I am paid to work with them, but that doesn't mean I can let them run my life or be disrespectful of it. Of all of them on my caseload, there really is only one who specializes in making me nuts. Add to that multiple years of pay cuts from the state for doing this challenging work and I'm really about ready to find something else to do professionally or at least a different agency then the state.

The past few years, one of my clients has been more and more challenging to work with. In the last few weeks, it's gotten worse. Added to the new roommate that's just plain nuts (but she's a family member so we have to be as patient as we can), has had me feeling stressed more then normal. *Insert deep breath here*. This is where Paladin comes in. He is always very calm and thoughtful and as a fellow healer he's able to help me work through these difficulties.

Paladin has many jobs as Myne, and he is something of a Swiss knife of usefulness. AsI have mentioned in the past, while he was quickly willing to be my slave, he took more time to consider the position of confidant. He ponders things a long time before he make a decision for the most part. But once he agreed, he threw himself into it as he does everything else. And over the years it has helped me to grow and learn to communicate better and better. Before Paladin, I had many more bouts of 'Celtic moroseness' (aka depression but not as romantic sounding). I used to just shut down and worry these things over in my mind, but he doesn't allow that to happen, and another job of his is to intervene if he thinks I need it.

Last nite, I needed it. So, we had a very long chat that helped on more levels then I can say. In a life that is often tinged with insanity of the other participants, Paladin is truly the only sane one in the mix. And one of the things he is most persistent about is making me talk about things that bother me. All the things that feel mean and/or petty.. things I don't want to say to the folks that inspire them. Or the feelings of frustration that can be almost overwhelming sometimes. He is the only person on the planet that I'll say these things to, and then they are able to be released in an environment of acceptance and love. And he's right, I do always feel better afterwards. Much more at peace with things. And he gives wise counsel as well. I have deep respect for who he is as a person both personally and professionally. I admire his devotion to his friends, parents, siblings... and Me. So with his help, I am set in a new direction and some new business idea's. Checked out the craigslist some tonight to get some idea of what's out there, and found a few things I could apply to, so looks like its time to do a new resume, cuz I've not had to do one in 21 years..

On another note.... we got to have lunch together today, a rare occurrence. I was done working early and he was taking a late lunch, so we met up at a the KFC in the town he works in on my way home past it. It was nice to see him in his business attire, it gives me all sorts of evil thoughts. Like making him go to the restroom and take off his undies, just like the girl slaves are made to do sometimes. But... well... he'd be a bit more obvious without some sort of covering if he happened to get aroused. Oh yeah.. that does give rise to more wicked thoughts... but... as much fun as it could be, I am very careful anything I might do that would affect him professionally.

He was covered in work energy.. could see his programming mind still running over his project at work, almost hear those gears clicking. When things are like that, I don't like to break that focus, he has a lot of responsibility in his work and I know he needs to stay focused to do it. It's only after hours that I'll actually indulge in all those yummy wicked thoughts.

He was also extra sweet when he hugged me and kissed me on the top of my head on our way back to our cars, highly unusual for him in public, and even more so on a work break. It's not that he's not normally affectionate, he is extremely, but only in private. He is generally very reserved in public, guess its that British upbringing. Made me grin all the way home. The boy is showing progress!

Well, that's it for tonight,

time to get some rest,

safe paths to all,

Mystress