Anticipation again...

Dear pet has already started our countdown for tonight.

He has promised Me much pleasure, of Myne choosing.
He has excellent insight into Me and what I like most.
Sometimes... I like that best..to leave it all in his
most capable hands to choose and to surprise Me.

I think...tonight I shall take him up on his offer,
to let him be the one who does the navigating
of our evening after our dinner and bath.

Sometimes, I like to not have to think,
but simply let it all flow from him.
That also affords Me some surprises,
which he well knows I like.

I shall allow him to choose the ways and methods
although from some of our txting so far today,
he has an excellet start on things.

And.. he is wearing one of the shirts I love him best in,
a summer blue.. the same color as his amazing eyes.
Somehow.. that blue has become the color of pleasure to Me.
Thank you pet.. I always appreciate your choices for My visit.

I go off to My busy day now, pet already at his.
But ours will both end in relaxation and combined joy.

Best to all,
Mystress

Tomorrow Approaches

I saw my wonderful Mystress Tuesday and oh my i get to see my lovely Mystress again tomorrow. Tomorrow Mystress and i shall be alone...to reconnect and share another wonderful eveing together.

I expressed to Mystress that tomorrow the nights activities and the order they happen in shall be in the order that most spoils herself. Be it strokes all night or other activities...the night is there to spoil Mystress...and to reward her for her wonderful caring and sharing sacrifices on Tues.

If Mystress does not want to think of tomorrows activities or feels she doesn't feel like planning them and instead just relaxing letting me pleasure her all night then i shall do that too. In either case Mystress shall enjoy a night of pleasure.

I retire to bed early tonight to be ready for tomorrow...for my Mystress's visit and for her pleasure.

Paladin

A Wonderful Evening

Its 11:15pm and the evening unfortunately has come to pass. What a wonderful evening it was too. Immediately i felt that everyone was more comfortable than the first time...i myself felt much more comfortable...thanks to Mystress broadening my horizons.

Dinner consisted of some great Chinese food...note to self Mystress's Lady is not a fan of Brocolli so keep it in mind. Dinner went well all enjoyng the meal and sharing some wonderful conversation.

Mystress Lady has had some pain of late so we spent some time giving her a back massage to relax her and then some Reiki to soothe the pain. My Lady definitely seemed to soak it up and enjoy it all. The ladies were quite kind to give me som Reiki which i guess i was soaking up too...thank you to the ladies for that.

We retired to the room for some relaxing time...all having a wonderful time sharing what Mystress and I share with the Lady. She seemed to enjoy it immensly and Mystress definitely seemed to be enjoying the show...and joining in too at times.

Alas the night ended way to soon...time hates us all when fun is being had. Mystress did make a suggestion that would extend the time...we shall have to talk about it for the future.

Time to prepare for the morrow...Sleep well Mystress and say thank you to the Lady for me.

Paladin

Of Master and pet and consequences

Today is finally here!
Amazing how time can crawl between times.
And how I find Myself thinking about pet
and those things that I enjoy so much with him.

My evolvement from sub to Mystress has been
an interesting road to Me.
I find that I almost expect others' to respond to Me
in My Dominant stance as he does.
I once had a Master tell Me that is why he had
to stop being a Master, because he had come to expect
the same obedience from everyone he did from a sub.

Hmmm... well.. I am not quite that far gone.
I did see Myne own Master for dinner on sun night,
first time alone in weeks...
My own knight being up the hill with long time lovers
of his own, and pet busy with a social engagement.
I wonder sometimes, if the Domme part of Me will
outweigh the sub. And although I have mixed flashes
sometimes ( like when I was washing pet's feet and almost
kissed them, feeling so grateful to him for the intense pleasure
he gives but realizing that was not quite the best thing,
I bit his ankle instead)
when I am around Master, it all comes back.
He and I talk about pet, and Master is very glad that
I have pet to keep Me company and My most times
excessive libido tamed.

We discussed the 'rules' about D/s and Master being wise
said there are no rules but what WE make between us.
He's never gone by any Himself, only be who He wants to be
and do what He wants to do. He simply expects to be obeyed.
We discussed the 'spanking till using the safe word' bit,
and He nodded in agreement as I reflected
that while He's given Me plenty of spankings, none of them have
been overly long although some of them have been painful,
nor has He ever done it to the point
of My using My safe word. He did remind Me however, that being
put in the 'discipline' position and not knowing how long a spanking
is going to be does indeed put a sub into an obedient sub space.
And that is true. When he has Me assume 'the position' and wait for Him,
I certainly commence to trembling. While I too am mostly a pleasure
slave, there is always that edge of giving up control, even when it is hardest
to do so because of My own desires to be in control. But.. a spanking
can put Me into a deep place of submission, knowing I have accepted His
collar, and that a part of that is acceding to His knowledge of Me and His
wisdom in what I need to be truly submissive.

Master had Me reflect on the aspects of knowing I would be spanked
for infractions. Making me keep track of them,
and holding Me accountable for them. Even those when life gets
in the way and I could not do them. Although He would give some grace,
He was right when He said that when I agreed to His collar and to
the duties that He would give me, there were no 'good' reasons for a
true slave to not complete their duties, or find a way to make up for them.
And that a slave who does not have that done, will become lax and
take that 'grace' for granted. That I would to some degree 'choose'
what would take up My time, and if I chose something that interfered
with those said duties, then I was also 'choosing' the consequences
that go with them. And upon reflection, He is very right. And,
I also realize, how important it is to be held accountable. He never
allows Me to 'whine' about anything and I am simply expected to bear
up to the best of My ability.

I know there are times in pet's life when he gets very busy as well,
and tis a fyne line to walk as to know when I should and shouldn't
hold him accountable for those duties that he does not accomplish
because of his social activities. There is also the aspect of how closely
to the line to hold him. For instance.. when he sends a pic rather late
and at the same time as a noon text is expected...but not the noon txt,
do I hold that as an infraction or no? Upon pondering.. most of My
own owner's would have held Me to it. Part of this ownership is very
exacting. Yet.. Again.. there is that line of what is too much, and what
is not enough. Asking Master these things, His reply is that tis up
to Me for Me to decide. I do not want to be unjust by any means,
and I know how hard pet does try. I wrote out a list of infractions
for Myself to read the other day, and there were a few. I had mentioned
to pet not long ago about some, and he said that I should remind him of
them.. well.. reminding is one thing, consequences for those are another.

I think tis not a bad thing to do sort of a 'block' of consequential discipline
for those things that he has missed, because a part of Me feels like I am
not doing My job if I let him slide on those things. Exact is exact.. and if
he needs slack, then his job is going to be to have to ask Me for that in advance.
For instance.. I had told him specifically this past fri nite that he needed to do his blog no matter what time he got in from the evening's social activities.
It was very late and he was very tired.. so I did not make him. Yet..
I felt that there does need to be some consequence for it. Same with Saturday.
Yes.. I understand about his social commitments.. but.. I think that he needs
to ask to be excused instead of My simply granting grace. Although on Sat I wanted to chat with pet for a bit, and he did do so.. so I counted that instead
of his blog entry.

The best I can do, is compare what I do with pet with My own
experiences with those that have owned Me. Much of what we
do is indeed patterned after those experiences rather then
those that are most well known in D/s circles.
Like My own dear Master....

Looking at His grin across the table Sun nite, I realized one
of the things I cherish about Him, is His unpredictability. I can't say
I ever quite know what to expect from Him when we are alone in
private. His spanks when He does them, are always very hard and
He makes a few count. He has been a strict disciplinarian, and holds
Me accountable for what He does expect of Me...
however His heart is also kind and loving to Me,
and that is how I always want pet to feel about Me. I have told Master
that I use Him most often as My role model for pet, and that of course
pleases Him.

Well, tis about time for Me to get ready
to go get My Lady friend.. and for us to go visit pet.
I will have pet read this blog I think
and ask him what he thinks at dinner.
My Lady friend also has gentle insight into things
and perhaps her input will assist us.
I let no one make up My mind for Me as to
what and how I do things with pet..
however, I do like to get as much info from as many
different perspectives as I can, and then make
My choice.

So pet.. I want you to bring this up at
dinner tonight... to have read this, and thought
about it some before we get there so that
we can have a discussion about it. For
discipline IS a part of this relationship..;
and while yes.. you ARE a pleasure slave..
you have also agreed to the duties I have given you,
and I have refrained from giving you more.
I want your honest insight into this.
Should you be physically disciplined for those
times you do not accomplish your duties?
And how exacting should I be with you?
How do you feel if I do not have consequences for
duties not done? Are you aware of them, and if so,
what is in your mind? And if you are not aware..
isn't that to some degree worse? Like forgetting
your morning pic the other day?
Should I offer grace, or should you have to
ask for it in advance, and should there still
be consequences for things not done?

You wrote recently, that the stronger I became
as a Mystress... the stronger you would become
as a submissive.. well. I would think that includes
both sides of the coin pet.. the pleasure,
and the pain of it.

I will expect you to bring this up..
and it is Commanded that you do.,

But.. indeed.. most of the
evening will be for the pleasure of our Lady friend,
but insight from her I also think could be valuable.

Until soon pet..
Mystress

Another wonderful evening approachs.

Its approaching 10 pm on Monday and i continue my countdown for when i host two lovely Lady's. Mystress and her Lady are coming to visit tomorrow which i look forward to very much.

It once again gives my Mystress an opportunity to show me off and i hope to do her proud. We have a special activity planned for my Mystress's Lady but i shall keep the details to myself...all i shall say is that my Lady is in for a very enjoyable experience gaing a small insight into what my Mystress and i share.

Time approaches shortly for me to rest... and dream of my Mystress...Imagining her in the position her lady shall be in tomorrow...oh what a wonderful thought.

Paladin

Appreciation and Anticipation

Time to voice some appreciation.

One of the things I want to always make sure I do,
is voice My appreciation for all that pet does.

Tis been almost two month's now, and I am more then
thrilled with how things have progressed with pet.
He is so willing and so able at all that he does
that he is a true joy to be with and train.
Even when he is exhausted,
he does his best to fulfill his duties
and find the time to communicate with Me.

He does all things well, but especially what he loves best,
and that is to give pleasure.
Just hearing his voice gives Me very much pleasure.
Getting a txt from him and knowing that he is thinking of Me,
that too gives Me pleasure, and I deeply appreciate it.
I am very proud of pet as well,
for his forthrightness and eagerness to learn.
He has taken each new assignment,
and done his very very best to complete them.
He is very much a perfectionist in all he does
and I an more then honored that he has chosen
Me... to be his Mystress.

Each time that I buckle his collar on,
I feel deep rush of pride,
each time I see My sword shining at his throat
or his bracelet glimmering on his wrist
I am touched by his devotion.
Each time I see his morning pic,
giving Me his sign of fealty to Me
makes My heart leap with joy.
And his evening pic, does the same.
Each time he txt's Me, and asks how I am
I am moved with gratitude.
And each time he smiles down at Me,
and moves Me with himself,
I filled with pleasure and joy.
Each time he writes from the depths
of his heart either on our blog or by email,
I am thrilled to read his private thoughts
that he chooses to share with Me.
Each erotic thought that he sends Me,
makes My toes curl with anticipation
of the next time I'll see him.

All of these gifts that he gives Me,
do I appreciate, and
never take for granted.
Each morning I wake,
and know that he has chosen to
dedicate himself to Me and to us,
I feel deeply blessed by his presence
in My life.

Sometimes.. I can over worry about things..
and that is something I have to be more aware of.
I certainly will do My best and I want to make sure
that pet knows that now that I am aware of it,
tis something I will be more cognizant of.

This weekend was another busy one for both of us.
Both days have been socially busy for pet,
and today was for Me as well. But,
as pet says, those times when we are apart
only serve to enhance the time when we are together.

And I willingly admit, I certainly do look forward to those times,
Anticipation runs high for each time I see him,
see him kneel before Me offering up his collar to Me.

I love to think about all the things I want to do to pet..
and all the things I want him to do to Me.
We have quite a bit of flexibility within our rituals
and so that allows us many different aspects of things.

I find quite a bit of arousal comes from
dropping pet into sub space.
There are several ways to do this,
and some of them he likes more then others.
But none of them are beyond the realm of possibility
at any given time. Part My Domination of him
needs to be to expect the unexpected. He shouldn't
always know exactly what to expect. I do like to keep him guessing
sometimes as to what may or may not happen next.
I like to have certain things that he knows what to expect,
our regular rituals and such,
but.. I AM the Dominant here, and it's up to Me
to decide what does and doesn't happen within our relationship
and what he does and doesn't do.

I once wrote that we had said this was a Parliament
not a democracy.... well, I was wrong then.. this is neither,
tis a dictatorship.. and I am the ruler of our two person nation.

I try to be a wise and benevolent ruler however
and take all of the aspects of pet into consideration.
And sometimes.. I just like to drop him into sub space
until he shudders all over and his eyes glaze over..
and then, whence he has returned....
have him do it to Me.

This week I hope will be good for both of us.
My lady friend and I go to visit pet again
on Tue.. and then I'll go alone on Thur.

I hope pet has a good week and that
he is happy and well.

Wishing him all the best all ways,
Mystress

The Ritual.

What a wonderful day. We had been looking forward to Thursday all week knowing that we were going to do the commiment ritual. The work day once again decided to drag on and on but then the time arrived.

Being in my obedient mindset i was ready to start my kneeling when Mystress jumped all over me...not being one to complain i was more than happy to kiss my wonderful Mystress. After this things returned to our standard rituals.

The commitment ritual said to eat during the ritual but being ourselves and always wanting to make something our own we modified it and ate before the ritual. Dinner was simple consisting of a number of small dishes, the company amazing as always.

Before the ritual we took a wonderful bath...i must admit the baths are one of my favorite things of the evening. Quite relaxing and soothing and it serves to drain away all the days pains getting us ready for whats to come.

We started the commiment ritual in our typical unorthodox manner adding to it slightly. Mystress found a wonderful candle with two wicks...representing us both. We took turns lighting it expressing out commitment to one another. The scent from the candle setting the mood for the ritual to come.

The ritual consisted of getting comfortable, relaxed and in tune with each other which we did by kissing and breathing together.

I read the questions allowed for us each taking turns to answer. Mystress has provided some of her answers and now i shall too.

1)Start by affirming your decision to remain together.

I reaffirmed my commitment to my Mystress as her slave/pet/sub and that i had not made the decision easily so it would be for the long run.

2) Take turns to describe what you value about your partnerand tell your lover why you are committed to the relationship.

I value Mystress's caring, trusting, loving, understanding nature and her wonderful desire. Mystress cares deeply for what we have and because of this i feel i can trust Mystress deeply. In return i feel Mystress can trust me. Because of the values above we can love one another which leads to satisfying Mystress's wonderful desires.
With such values it is easy to commit to the relationship because it is not often one finds all these values in one person. This makes the relationship special and one worth commiting too.

3)Talk about the ways you have blossomed, and what youappreciate about the unexpected ways the relationship has unfolded.

The biggest way i have blossomed thanks to Mystress is to lower some of my privacy fields down. Its been difficult but Mystress has shown me that its not always good to be so private as one misses out on many things. With this advice i have tried to get out of this super private mode alittle. Another suprising blossom is the trust i have in Mystress...never before have i trusted someone so deeply so quickly.
The way the relationship was found and started was unexpected. Never thought i'd find what i was looking for how i found it but i don't question it. All i know is that it is real and worth all the time invested.

4) Articulate how you see the fundamental principles in your relationshipwhether honesty, fidelity, companionship or adventurousness.

The Dom Sub relationship is what the relationship is modeled after but Mystress has once again taken a standard practice and molded it to how she wants it to be and i am happy to try fill this mold for Mystress. Another principal is pleasure. Both Mystress and I are into pleasure a great deal be it receiving pleasure or giving pleasure. Trust is another big one. I trust Mystress to watch out for us both and to teach us all she wishes to learn. Along with this trust comes communication. We both agree that communication is a key principle. It allows us both to express our needs and desirs or concerns if any. This leads to a much stronger relationship.

5)Share what you would like to improve.

This was an easy question to answer for me atleast. Since the relationship is new and our communication is strong...i thought we didn't need to improve anything. If there is an issue we address it and it goes away...not being allowed to fester and damage the relationship.

6) Outline the aspects that you plan to work on,and what you hope to nurture.

I plan to work on being less private...to open up more to Mystress. I also plan to study my lessons well and to be the best sub Mystress could have. I plan to nuture the relatioship we have...to work on growing our desires, pleasure and closeness.

7) Listen to your partner express his or her feelings about youand the dynamics of your relationship.

Mystress is right...this part is hard for me but i hope Mystress can read my feelings for her. I care immensly for Mystress. I care that she is happy and content, that she is satisfied and receiving all the pleasure she wants, that she is full of pride when she shows me off. Listing the dynamics of our relationship would be a task unto itself. In a nutshell our relationship dynamics are based on trust, caring, closeness, desire, pleasure and an extreme willingness to do our best for one another.

8) Hear your partner's intention for the coming year.

My intention for the coming year is to learn all i can from Mystress. To soak up her lessons so that i may be the best sub i can for Mystress so that she may have pride in me.

9) Reinterate what you value in your relationship,and how it nurtures both of you. I value every aspect of our relationship.

The trust, caring, closeness, desires, pleasure and pride we both share. I couldn't be more proud of Mystress in the way she has adopted her new role...how she has embraced it. The more Mystress embraces her role i think will nuture both of us for the stronger Mystress gets as a dom the stronger i feel i shall become as a sub.

10) Express your mutual appreciation and respect for one another.

Both of us appreciates the other immensly. For without the other this relationship would not be around. We both searched for many years for what we have making this very special and because of this, appreciated immensly. Along with the appreciation comes respect.. I respect Mystress for changing herself to adopt a new role and this brings pride to me.

11) Celebrate your deisre to give each other pleasure,as well to access bliss from within yourself.

As Mystress states, giving one another pleasure comes easily for us because we are both so pleasure orientated. Each time we are together there is always a tremendous amount of pleasure for both of us.

12) Acknowledge the sacredness of sexuality and its powerto transform you life.

Our sexual aspects have become more ritualistic and in doing so a degree of sacredness has been attached to it. Its never wam bam its over with us, its always long and sensual and special. Knowing Mystress story i take my time, giving her all the pleasure she can take, making the experience a pleasureable one for both of us. In doing this the act has become more a symbol of bonding and each time we do we grow closer.

These answers provide an overview with many more details shared between Mystress and I that night. To complete the ritual we once again made it our own by consumating the ritual in the manner we both love, by providing one another with pleasure.

Before we knew it the night had once again slipped away..teasing us...taunting us till the next time we are together. I have extended an invitation to the Ladies again for dinner if they so choose, if not the invitation is open to Mystress.

I go now to do my errands and during them i shall reflect once again on the ritual and what it means to me...passing the time till i once again see my Mystress.

Paladin