Last visist and future plans

Its late...well after a 14 hour day it is. I am waiting for my Mystress to get on the computer...my Mystress is having some internet connection problems...so i am waiting patiently.

Our last visit as Mystress reported was with some friends...new friends i do say. We had a wonderful evening. It was very low key and we had much conversation at the dinner table chuckling and laughing together. The food was good..the company was great...and i really enjoyed being showed off by my Mystress. Before we knew it it was past 10 and our company had to be off. Invitations were abound and intentions to do it again voiced. Thank you to our new friends...the time was truly lovely.

When we were alone..Mystress and I retired to the room for some pleasure and then some rest...mmmm what a wonderful time and only a taste of the weekend to come.

This weekend Mystress will be here once again and we have some great plans planned...plenty of pleasure and much bonding..our weekends have become wonderful and this weekend promises to be no different. Looking very forward to our bath....mmm lovely bath.

Off to veg some and wait on my Mystress...

Paladin

A Simple Evening

And so it was. Paladin and I talked at length in advance about what his protocols would be when our company arrived. We had a very nice bit of amazing pleasure on the couch before they came. Mmmmm... I had been so very aroused for days for him and he performed more then admirably. Suffice it to say that I was much more relaxed afterwards. It was wonderful to have the opportunity to connect on such a deep level as well.

Unbeknownst to Paladin, I had previously exchanged emails with our guests asking them if they felt comfortable with My having Paladin in his 'greeting' attire, meaning only his shirt and collar and restraints. He had known he would be in his 'formal' attire to greet them, and then in semi-formal for dinner and that we would play it by ear from there. My friends had written back to say that they would be perfectly comfortable with Paladin in his greeting attire. So they were quite aware that he was unaware of what would be happening.

I suppose I tipped him off when I had him turn his heater on. Because he is on an upper floor in his apartment complex, heat often rises and he almost never has his heat on. The past few times that I have been there, I have let him wear clothes because of the chill factor however.

Paladin touched My heart deeply when after greeting My friends, he knelt and welcomed them to 'our home'. Hearing him say those words left Me almost breathless.

After having seen our guests seated comfortably, and drinks provided, Paladin knelt before Me and asked for his collar and restraints. It was very sweet... and I said that yes, he could, but that he would have to do it in his 'greeting' attire. His eyes only widened slightly. But he smiled and was mostly ignored while he moved around the other side of the couch and undid his tie and removed his pants while we three sat on the couch and chatted. When he was ready, he brought Me his collar (in fact a new one of the same style that his other one has been, but this one fits him much better and he does not have to keep swiveling the buckle part of it around to the back of his neck. I had also gotten a tag for it that says "Paladin - Property of Mystress" that I will put on him for special occasions) and knelt and oh so charmingly pledged his mantra to Me, and in this, he was certainly the center of attention. It was of great pleasure to place his collar on him and attach his restraints as well.

After that, Paladin puttered in the kitchen while we chatted, and fixed dinner for us. It was a wonderful meal with delightful company. We ate and talked the evening away. My friends had been to Burning Man a couple of times and regaled us with fascinating stories of it. And they also asked Paladin many questions about his country of origin. They were surprised by some of the things that he shared with them about it. It was like being in the midst of two different worlds.. Paladin's home country, and the world of Burning Man.

It was a very low key evening, spent simply letting the 3 of them get to know each other. The evening was very relaxed and low key. Paladin was an amazing host and I was very proud of him in all ways. It was around 10pm when they bid us good nite and we quickly shut things down and headed off to bed. Where upon we indulged in some wonderful desert that Paladin had gotten for us side by side chatting about the evening. Then, it was time for the secondary dessert. Yummmmy, and so was Paladin! It was always wonderful to fall asleep curled in Paladin's arms.

Sometime before dawn I awoke from disquieting dreams and needing to feel both the reassurance and passion of Paladin. I have been reluctant to awaken him in some past mornings when we've not gotten to sleep till late... but this morning.. I NEEDED to feel him. He was so totally sweet about indulging Me in this even though I knew he must be tired. Afterwards, we slept for the few minutes before our alarms went off..and then another 20 mins.

It was sooo hard to get out of his warm bed.. and his delightful body. (sigh) And I will miss him tomorrow nite, but I know that he will be having a very long day, as he had a long one today as well. And.. I'll get to spend Sat nite with him.. and even better then that.. our favorite thing, it's supposed to rain here on Sat nite and Sunday morning!!! So. I know I'll be waking him up for pleasure in the nite.. to fall back asleep and sleep in cuddled together in the morning. The Superbowl doesn't come on until 3pm here.. although we do plan on watching a movie earlier in the day.

Paladin has never seen Young Frankenstein, and I'll be bringing it with Me for us to watch it on Sat eve as well. Yes.. I do have a odd sense of humor. I've referred to My 'abby brain' in the past, but he's not understood it, but he will after Sat nite! In fact, it was My friends from last nite that have lent Me the movie for us to watch.. and there is a part that the 3 of us sang in unison last nite ("oh at last sweet mystery of life I've found you!") .. Paladin will understand it after he sees it. Last week Paladin wrote about watching a tv show with Me that revealed something of My odd sense of humor.. and that show was Monk. He'd never seen that before. There will be more episodes of that for him to watch with Me as they have them on the internet now. (smile) He is as I have said, in general a pretty serious individual. He likes time piece movies and action and such.. but not silly sorts. Poor Paladin.. as Young Frankenstein is certainly one of the sillier movies ever made.

And in the spirit of sharing, on Sunday we'll be watching on of Paladin's favorite movies, Kingdom of Heaven. So.. I look forward to us sharing something new with each other and learning something else about what we both like.

This morning....I did get a very sweet letter from our friends, saying how much they had enjoyed the evening, and how handsome and charming Paladin was, and how obviously devoted to Me he is... and the observation that Paladin did truly have 'amazing rugby thighs!". And I give thanks for a wonderful evening of delightful company to them and look forward to another nice visit with them sometime in the future.

And on that note, I bid adieu to our dear readers. Wising everyone out there all the very best,
in all ways,
Mystress

A wonderful chat

Mystress and i had a wonderful chat tonight..well actually i should say myMystress...for my Mystress put in a new protocol tonight. My new pyorotocl is that i am to always refer to myself as your paladin and my Mystress as my Mystress. So when i ask Mystress if she wants anything i must say " Would my Mystress like something to drink?" or "Would you like anything to drink my Mystress."

If i am asking for something for me i must ask like " May your paladin please use the restroom my Mystress" or "May your paladin get something to drink my Mystress"


It definitely has a very courtly feel to it and i look forward to learning to adopt it into my many other protocols. Tomorrows visit of my Mystress's friends shall be the first public trial of my new protocols.

Practicing as we speak.

Paladin

My Paladin's Development

My Paladin has come very far in the journey of his development as My submissive. And I am always so proud of him. It has been something of a challenge for one as private a person as is he. And, one as reserved as he as well. There are many levels to My Paladin, and because of our privacy issues, there are many that I cannot speak of here.

Paladins writings the past few days have been very enlightening to Me. We did have an extended chat last nite, and I hurt him when I told him I didn't think that he needed Me the way that sometimes I know that other subs 'need' their Dom/mes. He expressed that My saying this hurt his feelings.. and I have apologized. He asked if did I not sense his feelings. And.. My response was... that yes, I do sense it. But, I never want to assume. For in Myne own past, I have been known to project My feelings on someone else, and I would not want to do that with him. I would rather have him speak his feelings, then have Me 'sense' them, or guess what they may be. I would not desire to overestimate them. So, I am very very pleased to have him speak and write his feelings so much more openly.

There was a time in My past, when I was much like Paladin. Perhaps even worse. I was considered.. frozen to some extent, and I would certainly not speak how I felt. It was too scary because someone might disagree with Me, or take offense to how I felt, or worse, I might reveal feelings that I had that someone else did not have. I might think that someone felt a certain way, and projecting My feelings upon them, because I wanted it to be so, I would get set in My place and be told that what I thought, or mistakenly 'assumed' was not so. I did learn the lesson of ass-u-me-ing in some harsh ways.

Even as a Mystress... where I am in control of things, I still cannot assume that he feels the way I may want him to. So again, I need him to be as clear as possible in his communications with Me. Because he was raised in a fairly reserved environment due to his family composition and national culture, it has been a challenge for him, and I have been continually impressed by his desire to stretch himself over and over. But, if I can stretch and change, then so can My Paladin.

As for his submission.. we have discussed that at length in the past. While I would not quite call him a control 'freak'.. he is fiercely strong in his control of his life. We did a mental test last night, and Paladin was in the category of a 'Guardian'.. which I find extremely appropriate for My Paladin. I am an 'Idealist'. I could feel us both smiling through the computer at how well our roles fit us each. The whole aspect of following rules, sticking to schedules and being very authority oriented certainly did fit Paladin to a 't'. At did My more 'touchy feely' sort or mode.

Paladin wrote last nite about our guest's tomorrow nite. It should be quite an interesting experience for us both. I must admit to loving to show Paladin off, and tomorrow nite will be no exception. Our company will not arrive till after I have been there for a while, and I am sure we'll find some way to amuse ourselves before the company shows up. This will also be another step along the way of Paladin's development.

I hope our readers can indeed tell how fond we are of each other, and how much joy we derive from our shared journey as we are both learning new things. And we do love to share what we learn with others as well. Comments are always gratefully appreciated.

On that note, I go off to chat with Paladin for a while,
As always,
Best to all,
Paladin's Mystress

Lessons for others in the future

This Tuesday Mystress and I host a couple who are friends with Mystress and who are interested in evoloving their own relationship into a stronger D/S relationship. Mystress feels that by us leading by example...we can show them some of the ropes...what it takes to establish such a relationship. How a sub should respond to his/her master/mistress....how a master/mistress should handle their sub. Generally ... an intoduction to who we do things. With this introduction we hope that they will find their own style and make a unique relationship for themselves.

The details for the night have not been set...we shall just play it by ear and make it as comfortable as we can for all. The goal is to provide a very relaxing environment for open discussion and learning. Some demonstrations will occur such as delivering a mantra and positions etc...everything to provide a well rounded demonstration of what Mystress and I have.

For Thursday it seems Mystress's and I plans are probably going to be put off due to it being a busy work day. We have already made plans for the coming weekend so we will just expand on these to make up for our laost time.

And yes...missing a day with my Mystress does cause me some sadness Mystress, even though i keep it inside...and your latest lesson has told me to not do it anymore, so I post here so everyone knows...that each time I miss a day with you Mystress...i am sad...and i do need you...more than i admit to myself...so on Thursday i will miss you Mystress...but ont he weekend i shall once again be reunited with my dear Mystress...and all will be made up.

Love Paladin

My Evolution.

When i first started my journey with Mystress i knew that i wanted to do it...i had been searching for the right Mystress for many years..and knew that for the right Mystress i would be able to change.

When I first started i was very reserved...as Mystress would say...I'd always have my castle walls up and on full defense. I was very tentative as with Mystress taking her first steps. I knew that i had to be sure that my Mystress was the right one...to build a level of trust i could use to expand on...to change from.

The trust was built fast as i felt something...just something from my Mystress...a good vibe or energy you may say...that i knew i could trust...and with this my change really started. I started to open up alittle more..sometimes at the proding and insistance of Mystress...but still it was something i wanted..something i needed.

Mystress identified this need...and even though Mystress insistance and pushing were at times difficult...for i had never taken these steps before...i knew that they were the right steps...and Mystress reinforced this thought with reassurances and many lessons and clear examples.

As time went on, what was difficult became easier. These included having Mystress stay over, expressing my feelings and thoughts, my desires and my longingness for Mystress to name just a few. My submission also grew.

At first it was a difficult task to stay submissive as my stubborn side would often come to the surface...i don't think i was ever disobedient or defiant...just hestiant and reluctant at times. But as with everything else...over time its become easier. I can go to sub space the moment Mystress tugs on my hair or bites my lip...or when Mystress forces me to my knees...at the start these were loft goals and seemed to be far out of reach...but Mystress through her lessons taught me the way...and its become so much easier now...I'd say almost automatic.

The one thing i am still working on is expressing my true feelings..openly and often. As Mystress says in her posts...hearing such declarations over and over and over does not diminish them...but instead makes them stronger...for each time it is said it deepends the meaning. A lesson i have thought much of as late and am determined to learn and put into practice....for if it makes my Mystress happy...it so so makes me happy.

So today i feel my walls...if they can even be called that...are much much lower...more like a white picket fence...still there but far less intimadating...and much more welcoming. The changes in myself...that even i have noticed..have been profound and i hope to make many more in time for my Mystress.

Enjoying he mutual evolution...

Paladin

My Mystress

As Mystress has noted in herself...so i have noticed from my perspective. What is this observation...well in a nut shell, its the evolution of my Mystress.

When we first started our journey together Mystress knew that she wanted to be a dom, and that she wanted a slave. Mystress had a good idea of what it involved, on how to train me and what to expect. But all this iformation was gathered from being on the receiving end of the relationship...as the sub...and not as a dom. Even with this understanding, Mystress was determined to make it so.

At first Mystress was alittle unsure of how to take command, how to ask with force for what she wanted...how to shed her submissive side and to take on her dom side. But as Mystress has practiced her dommination..so have these aspects become easier...and in time Mystress has evolved from a dom in training..to what i would call...a full fledged Mystress...complete with a commanding demeanor and less and less of a submissive nature.

I've asked Mystress if she misses her submissive side or if she is sad to see it diminish...and she has answered no on numerous occassions. It has been one of my proudest moments to see the change in Mystress..from her first tentative steps to now...when she takes giant dominating steps..with full confidence and compassion. Others have commented on how different Mystress feels to them too...full of confidence and assertivness and they have cherished the changes.

OUr last meeting Mystress asked if i could tease her. Mystress likes to be tied during this not to be submissive, but to heighten the sensory exhiliration. I used my own restraints this time for i wanted Mystrss to feel them just once, and i won't use them again on Mystress for i felt naked without them, so now Mystress knows how they feel to me. It was a wonderful bonding experience to share them with Mystress and i am glad Mystress experienced it, and when she said to take them off... i did so so quickly so that i could have them back on me.

Thank you Mystrss for growing with me...the journey has been so special and i can't wait to see what the future holds in our journey.

With so much love

Paladin